I LOVE FALL! You can feel the changing of the seasons in the air and smell it in every coffee shop, bakery, and grocery store you visit.
All your favorite craft stores have their fall decor front and center and your creative juices are already planning this year’s fall projects. Clothing stores are stocking this season’s sweaters and scarves.
The change from summer to fall is a gradual change here in the south, but even the smallest shift in the season is felt. It’s getting darker a little earlier and some days the temperature is less than 90 degrees! (Time to bust out my boots.)
For me, fall represents how life is changing. Though it is technically fall, it is still too hot here in the south, but, for me, fall is a state of mind.
This slow change gives me time to reflect on this season in my life and prepare myself for the start of a new chapter. Here are a few things (some serious, some not so much) that have run their season in my life.
Forcing myself to meet a quota of books read per month
I absolutely LOVE books. I love the way they smell, how interesting and beautiful the cover art is, and how they can sweep me away to another time and place. But here lately I’ve noticed that I’ve put a lot of pressure on myself to read as many books as possible in the shortest amount of time possible. It is sucking the joy away from my favorite pass time. Looking back, I think it started with setting goals on Goodreads and grew since I want to talk about books here on the blog. All that can still be done, but it needs be done at a pace where I am actually enjoying what I’m reading instead of feeling obligated. So no more rushing through books.
Apologizing for taking time for myself
I do not have much free time on a normal day. I have a full-time job and when I get home I want to spend time with my husband and our fur babies. But being the introvert that I am, I recharge by spending quality time with me and I always feel like I need to apologize for needing alone time. My husband understands this and gives me alone time when I need it, but I rarely ask for it. I can guilt myself better than anyone else in my life, and I’m done making myself feel guilty for the time that I need.
Stressing over infertility
The constant stress of trying to get pregnant has taken over my life for the last year and a half. Last month was the first time since we started that I was medicine free. And you know what? IT WAS WONDERFUL!!! With being on an emotional rollercoaster for so long, I had forgotten what it was like to just be me.
After our last doctor’s appointment, we decided to take a break from actively trying to get pregnant and to just enjoy each other. Do you know what it’s like not to have to plan sex? Or to just laugh so hard you cry because there is nothing else controlling your emotions? Because I had forgotten and I never want to forget again. This doesn’t mean that we won’t go back to infertility treatments at a later date, but for now we are just enjoying each other and our life.
Being stubborn for the sake of being stubborn
Stubborn people understand this. There are too many times to count how I have completely dismissed something (such as: a new tv show) just because someone else said that they liked it. Then two or three years later, I finally got over myself and watched it. And I loved it! My stubborn ways do not end there. The same thing goes for book and music recommendations. It also extends out to sharing chores (specifically walking the dog and putting away laundry) and has caused many of fight in our household.
I don’t know what it is about my genetic makeup, but it happens all the time and I’m missing out on some great bonding experiences I could be having with friends and family. It’s exhausting and I have other things to invest my time and energy into.
Not all things are easy to let go of (….stubbornness), but there is a season for everything in your life and once these items have run their course, it is wise to let them go.